I have a daughter who is a straight A student and starting to plan for her college. I am a single parent with little or no help from my ex so we are looking thru possiblities of grants and scholarships to get her into college.
In addition, we live in the state of Missouri.

okay so i have been living with my parents since september(2 months ago) and im 20 but before that i had lived on my own since i was 18..i lost my job last year in 2008-august- i was a receptionist and worked there for a year,and it was the most steady job i ever had.. and ever since then its been downhill for me..i had a couple jobs since than but theyve been ****, and crapass wage.. plus the economy is absolutly horrible right now and bak than as well,so i went on employment insurance because i couldnt get a job that could support me..it seems that ever since i lost my job even before abit i was loosing it,basically since i turned 19, i went a lil crazy because i was legal, i started hardcore parting atleast 3 days a week.and i was hanging out with lotsa partiers.eventually it affected my job and thats why i got fired because i was missing work cuz i was hungover alot of the time..so after all that time i just basically gave up looking for a job and stopped hanging out with my friends becasue i was sick of it all..ive become so fuken lazy it disgusts me..i want a job so bad but when i do get a job ,i go for the first day and than it stresses me out so much,the pressure and i feel like i cant do it ,so i just end up not going back. i keep thinking bak to my old job to if its going to be as stressful as those times,(i was the youngest and ppl treated me like ****) anyways i was basically a loner from december 2008 -may2009, and than i went to try and finish my highschool at this adult education place and i met this girl and we became friends and she introduced me to her friends,and we all became really close..ever since i started hanging out with them until now it feels everythign has gotten worse, i never used to smoke so much weed as often as i do now,drink more,having sex more ..i feel like such a disgusting person, for years now ive been thinking about suicide, but than i just tell myself ‘its got to get better than this’ but it doesnt get better!! plus my parents i feel like they hate me because i don’t go to church anymore like i had to when i was younger because i lived with them..i dont like religions because,theres too much gossip and i just dont support it,and they basically tell me im going to be going to hell.. anways ever since i lost my major job last year my health has really gone down hill as well, ive always had abit of a fainting problem but ever since last year its gotten so bad..il just faint anywhere. it gets to the point where im paranoid of going out and doing this in front of my friends..i just want to turn my life around so bad ..my mother is non-stop yelling at me saying im a ‘pig’ and im ‘disgusting’ because sometimes il stay in my room for days and not come out …ive told her im depressed but she doesnt understand..my parents now want me out of the house at the end of the month, and i have no where to live..all my friends live with their parents still, so i would be having to live on the streets,and my dad doesnt give a **** ,he says its ‘tough love’ theyre trying to teach me a lesson i know because i don’t have a job,,but ive been looking and nothing is good for me anyways…can anyone help me what i can do to get myself outa this rut im in? i just wana end this madness. i hate my life so ******* much..ive tried to tell everything but theirs so much stupid **** ive done i cant tell it all..
and just thinking about living on the streets makes me fuking sick..i dont want to live if i have to go through that..i prob wouldnt commit suicide but i def think about it,which makes me more depressed.. and just the thought of living in a cold area and someone physically hurting me or whatever just scares the fuck out of me

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I am 24 years old male. i have an achieved career in the field of 3D visual effects, profession and everything. I had a reason to live so far, whcih would be, achieving my goal in my profession and then take care of my parents by supporting them. My parents had forgotten how much poor we were, the days we were eating once a day, whcih is before i got the job and before i supported them or before I left my country. Now I am in a different country, working, but they dont care ab out me or anything, but the money i send them, I wonder if they even miss me. They call me every month around the date i send them money and thats it.

I am missing everything and being a loner. I cant beleive how lonley I am. The one girl I met and liked her, she is white. I met her in the gym, she talked, smiled, was kind, interesting, matured etc I started to like her. After a long time, I thought of telling her how I felt. But I was so nervous to approach her, but I gathered all my courages and asked her out. Now, the one girl I liked wont talk to me anymore. It is embarrasing and humiliating that she stopped talking to me for the reason I liked her very much and wanted to hang out with her, she is avoiding me in my face. I sometimes wonder what is wrong with me, I am not a bad person, I never disrespect anyone, I respect everyone for who they are…Why am I deserving this.

I am wondering what am I doing now in my life. I got everything, but I got nothing. Whom am I even living my life for? I cant get over that she rejected me. Is it because I am not white? or probably because I am Indian? she felt insulted that i wanted to go out with her, or maybe i am assuming it. I cant forget the way her face reacted when I told her how much I like her. I am very hurt.
I didnt walk upto her and tell her something like "I love you" I just asked her if she wanted to go out with me. I try to be honest about what I feel. I dont fake my emotions. I asked her if she likes to go out with me as I like her and find her interesting. I wasnt trying to get into her pants or anything…

She could have told me anything like she cant. I

In one of the replies from someone, he asked me if I smell good. I dont know why people think Indians are nasty. I am a neat freak myself, I regularly workout. I am not insecure. About the looks, I dont think I dress up like a slob. I look exactly like this guy from Hannah Montana, her dad..with the same hairstyle, bigger and younger than him, but an Indian version of him.
I was nervous to approach her because I really liked her and what if she says no. There are a lot of things about her which I found very very cute, like I can just watch her speak all day. I hvnt felt the same with many other girls.
She even said she is single last month. Anyways, I tried to talk to her again, but she pretends like I am invisible. embarrassing

what should it be? I apologize for finding you interesting and cute or for telling you Id be happy if you’d like to go out for a coffee or lunch?

Thanks a lot for the replies guys. It made me feel better.

This is long, but the background is important. I grew up the youngest of three and I came much later, so I was practically raised as an only child. My sister dropped out of high school her senior year and ran off with her bf (got married, had 2 kids, divorced, married again, divorced and now lives with and mooches off of me and my parents with no education or career). My brother made my parents pay three years of private tuition for him to become a pilot and then he dropped out (never repaid them, in fact went on to rob them blind of all their savings in a failed business attempt). I went to public school, got a full ride to college and graduated .. then got 2 master’s degrees. I started supporting my parents (and my sister who lives with them) when I was 22 and still in college and I still support them today by myself with no help from my brother or sister. I got married when I was 29 (im now 32) to my preschool-sweetheart … and I know for a fact that my siblings envied that.. but everyone loved him and so did I. We’re going through an emotionally horrific divorce right now where we’re both still very much in love with each other, but I can’t forgive him. The problem is that my brother and sister are now treating me like $hlt at the most vulnerable time in my life. When she left her husband, I was there and when he went to jail I was there. When her son had cancer, I was there (even though she wasn’t) and when his fiance cheated on him, I went to bat for him even though no one else did and they all took her side. This is the first time in my life that I have needed to know that they have my back if I need them … which I haven’t … but they criticize me, ridicule me and put the blame of my failed marriage on me. Why are they acting like that? I don’t understand why they can’t be supportive … growing up, my brother was the favorite and my sister did everything in her power to get attention … I pretty much was in the shadows and I was fine with it… I’ve been a loner since I was an infant and I love it… are they upset at me that for once the attention is on me? I can’t fathom why two people who have been so nice to me over the years have now turned on me … it’s not because they’re sorry he’s leaving, it’s like they’re gloating … I just need help trying to understand this. I’m trying to be rational and mature about this whole thing and I hate that for the first time in my life I’m feeling victimized … I have NEVER felt sorry for myself until now .. I guess what I’m trying to ask is, why are they treating me like this?