okay so i have been living with my parents since september(2 months ago) and im 20 but before that i had lived on my own since i was 18..i lost my job last year in 2008-august- i was a receptionist and worked there for a year,and it was the most steady job i ever had.. and ever since then its been downhill for me..i had a couple jobs since than but theyve been ****, and crapass wage.. plus the economy is absolutly horrible right now and bak than as well,so i went on employment insurance because i couldnt get a job that could support me..it seems that ever since i lost my job even before abit i was loosing it,basically since i turned 19, i went a lil crazy because i was legal, i started hardcore parting atleast 3 days a week.and i was hanging out with lotsa partiers.eventually it affected my job and thats why i got fired because i was missing work cuz i was hungover alot of the time..so after all that time i just basically gave up looking for a job and stopped hanging out with my friends becasue i was sick of it all..ive become so fuken lazy it disgusts me..i want a job so bad but when i do get a job ,i go for the first day and than it stresses me out so much,the pressure and i feel like i cant do it ,so i just end up not going back. i keep thinking bak to my old job to if its going to be as stressful as those times,(i was the youngest and ppl treated me like ****) anyways i was basically a loner from december 2008 -may2009, and than i went to try and finish my highschool at this adult education place and i met this girl and we became friends and she introduced me to her friends,and we all became really close..ever since i started hanging out with them until now it feels everythign has gotten worse, i never used to smoke so much weed as often as i do now,drink more,having sex more ..i feel like such a disgusting person, for years now ive been thinking about suicide, but than i just tell myself ‘its got to get better than this’ but it doesnt get better!! plus my parents i feel like they hate me because i don’t go to church anymore like i had to when i was younger because i lived with them..i dont like religions because,theres too much gossip and i just dont support it,and they basically tell me im going to be going to hell.. anways ever since i lost my major job last year my health has really gone down hill as well, ive always had abit of a fainting problem but ever since last year its gotten so bad..il just faint anywhere. it gets to the point where im paranoid of going out and doing this in front of my friends..i just want to turn my life around so bad ..my mother is non-stop yelling at me saying im a ‘pig’ and im ‘disgusting’ because sometimes il stay in my room for days and not come out …ive told her im depressed but she doesnt understand..my parents now want me out of the house at the end of the month, and i have no where to live..all my friends live with their parents still, so i would be having to live on the streets,and my dad doesnt give a **** ,he says its ‘tough love’ theyre trying to teach me a lesson i know because i don’t have a job,,but ive been looking and nothing is good for me anyways…can anyone help me what i can do to get myself outa this rut im in? i just wana end this madness. i hate my life so ******* much..ive tried to tell everything but theirs so much stupid **** ive done i cant tell it all..
and just thinking about living on the streets makes me fuking sick..i dont want to live if i have to go through that..i prob wouldnt commit suicide but i def think about it,which makes me more depressed.. and just the thought of living in a cold area and someone physically hurting me or whatever just scares the fuck out of me

How has it been for you? I am a good guy, pretty d@m sexy (this is what ppl tell me and i do take great care of my body) I am responsible. But it seems as if kids really are a dealbreaker for most people. I am fine wiht it honestly sicne my kids give me all I need really. I would not trade my spot for the mothers spot for anything! (she is living free and single with no responsibilities…she gets the kids only 4 days out of the month and seems to be ok with it to live her single lifestyle) But I’d like to hear anyone else who is a single parent on how dating has been for you?